here is the dilly-o

So I have been poked at by many people over my lack of posting. I have no excuses. Although if I said My fingers broke off, or my computer crashed or I was locked up for a month. this might be better than the fact of I just lacked the motivation.

I love reading blogs. I proud myself on being a blog stocker. But I work hard, and I get drained, and when the weekend comes I lost all energy and motivation. So I don't blog. Also all my great pictures of all my adventures. Is still on my camera. WHY? Well you see my computer only has so much memory and right now I already have tons of pictures and Music on my Hard Drive So this is making it difficult to add more.

So since I have no pictures on my computer to add to my Blog I am un motivated to blog.

But since I have 3 weeks of nothing to do. I figure I could add my pictures to the online picture holding places, and this way free up some memory from old pictures.

But I am alive and well. Work is going well. I walk around in the snow teaching kids. throwing snow balls. touching the kids socks to make sure they have dry feet... Yummy.

So there is a snow drop to happen tomorrow. But I am praying it won't hold up schools from coming. cause I need to be paid. SO I pray the weather although bad may not hold up program, electricity or water. since all are needed for me to be paid.

Hope you all have a merry Christmas. and now that I have watch the First Presidency Devotional I am so ready for Christmas. Is there any doubt those are men of God that just spoke to the world. I don't think so. I never have cried during silent Night, but Pres. Monson. Just put it all in perspective.

Love ya all. Who ever reads this, Mom and Tanya. I hope I don't become the A.S. That snowman person. Can't say it or spell it so thats what you are getting. Live with it.
Love Ya

Life in the Mtns

So I know it has been FOREVER since I last blogged... Tons of things have happened, both good and bad, But I have lost all desire to blog about it. So I have formed the blogs in my head. Not at all fun or exciting.

So This job compared to the others is alot more fun and a differnt type of stress level. I can either be in the cabins with their kids at night and morning. Or I can be with them during the day teaching them various things. I have to teach them from set lesson plans, some of them are all right, but other I am struggling with, and I am not supposed to change things until I am cleared to do so.

One of the classes i am supposed to teach is Climbing. That is new Its differnt learning how to belay someone. I have yet to be certified to do this, but hopefully this week I will be able to pass, since I failed once before.

Oh in the dining hall it is run so nicely. It isn't crazy like at other camps. and the kids have total portion control. Oh and they cook Adult food too. So we don't have to eat the kids crazy food. Although its good too, But we have options. YUM.

Oh did I mention our views are awesome. And I will be getting snow this winter... i will see how I fair with that. I am not to sure about driving on the mtn roads... Crazy loopy.

I love it here my coworkers are fun, Crazy people but they make me laugh And I like laughing.

I have my own room with a little floor space so if anyone wants to visit and get away I am not to far. In between big bear and redlands. So message me And I can be a tour guide.
Well Until Next week, when maybe I will post more

I am Alive

So I moved.... I am all settled in my own room, after living temporarly In a cabin with 15 other girls.

So Work is great... I never thought I would enjoy being in a mtn setting more so than my last arrangement of Texas. It is very peaceful and scenic.... I will post pictures at one point... Promise.

It is stressful that there are more responsiblilties than my last job. and You have to teach the lesson plan like they want it taught... PRESSURE.

I have seen some Mule Deer a couple times. And I have some amazing rocks to add to the collection... FUN.

So I can't think of anything else to add to this update... Life is good. My coworkers aren't crazy. I am one of the oldest workers here... CRAZY.. if I didn't feel old by turning 27 Now I do.

So Hopefully I will get the swing of life and will get in a routine.

But I get cell service sparticly in the Mtns. So Please Keep me in mind shoot a text... I do feel kinda lonely But not homesick. Don't get that confused... Well I better get to church.

STK Conferance

Today was Stk Conferance. I was actually was going to leave Saturday, Just so I would have time to adjust to being in Cali... But I deceided to stay once I heard it was Stk Conference.

If you have ever been a member of the North Las Vegas Stake You won't really understand...

But I grew up in this stake and It has only been a recent event that I love Stake Conf.

SO This weekend has been exactly what I needed.

We had Stake Temple Day on Friday. Did a session... Gained a sense of peace.

The adult Session of Conferance on Saturday was Amazing.

We have a stk Center Choir. These are stk Member called and set apart to sing in this choir.

Bro Green conducts. (I love to watch him) I can't help but watch him He is so fun.

Well My ward was assigned the 3rd session of Sunday Conference.

(yes our stk is huge we have 3 sessions... Crazy)

The talks we absolutely Amazing... So uplifting and strengthing.

But the Best Part of all of Conference is the Choir.

They the best songs ever Like...

My heavenly Father Loves Me, Dear to the heart of the sheperd, The Lord is my Light, Spirit of God.

But the best one was an arragement of Master the Tempest is Raging.

OH my it is unlike anything I had heard.

I would totally Love to have a copy of that song for my Ipod I would listen to it ALL the time....

Well Just thought I would let you all know... Our Stake Is Amazing.

It is hard being in other stakes once you have been in North.

Summer in Review

So Here it is September. I am all packed and ready to go to Cali, in 8 hrs... I know I should be asleep. I am on to that next.

Well I am totally feeling lame that I haven't blogged about all my adventures from the summer..

Don't worry I will But I am not sure on the Internet connection or what it will be like for Work at the camp. SO here is an over view collage of my adventures.

SO This summer My sister took me to San Antonio for the day, and we watched the travel production of WICKED... Man This was amazing. LOVE IT!

Oh and I saw the ALAMO it is smaller than I thought. But still cool.

My cousin Got married, Yeah Elise and Leo... SO I saw thier sealing here in Vegas, but went to Bakersfield for the reception a week later. Fun times with the fam.

I had to say Bye to a sweet friend. Nicoley I love her. But we are all moving on to bigger and better things.

I wasn't as active as I wanted to be, But I did hike in Red Rock once. But The funnest was

THE NARROWS in ZION NP

Loved it had fun... and the group I went with made it more great....

(Why is it any adventure I take I end up getting dupped I new Nick name....

Bubs, Tollhouse Janes.... WHY?)

Lastely I love cooking and I was adventurious on some things. Check it out at the bottem

Well The next post will be me at my New Digs in CALI

Wish me luck

update of sorts

OK so my last post was a kinda of downer... I know its been one of those summers. An emotional rollercoaster.

But I have been thinking and been praying. And I think I have come to a healthy resolution.

So I am Happy to say, I am HAPPY, and waiting to see what life has for me to do in my life.

The summer is coming to an end and I am coming closer and closer to the time I will be leaving for California. And I still have yet to accomplish anything from my summer list of what I want to accomplish. Well Hopefully i can get orgainized with my stuff before I leave.

Well i hope I can also have the motivation to do the back post I have been meaning to do. All my beginning of the summer fun.

what I NEED!!!!

Ok I feel so terrible. I have blogged more in a month while living away from home than I have this past month.... I feel so terrible. I come home from my morning job with it in my head that I am going to blog about this or that... I have so many pictures to make a blog everyday for more than a week, But I loose all motivation by the time I actually get home.

But the reason for my Blog is I need to vent.... And I feel I have no one who wants to listen to me, Just listen nothing else...

No passing judgement, or telling me whats really wrong, or how to fix it.

JUST LISTEN!!!!!!

I just want to talk to someone about all the "STUFF" that is going on in my head with out it resulting into a Battle. I don't like to battle. Some people might think I do but I actually don't. Te people who truly know me know I am all talk no action. SO you might think I want to battle when in fact I am just letting of steam.

So this is the place I sit at right now. I have so much going on in my head that I feel Like I am all over the place. I have so much stuff I want to accomplish in the short time I am still at home and since I have all this "stuff" in my head It is causing me to let things go, and sit. I DON'T want this..... Not at all.

SO I am feeling rather alone, with no one to talk to, that is actually willing to Just listen. I just want some one's complete attention to listen to all the craziness that is going on so I can get it out of my head, and get back to a normal life.

Maybe I should take out an AD onto craigslist... I will feed for someone to listen.